I’m truly connected to music. When I fall in love with a song or artist, I fall hard and fast and it endures. I fell in love with She Wants Revenge years ago and they had just announced their hiatus. Seeing a band live is the ultimate music experience for me. It crushed me to know I wouldn’t get to see them perform live.

Fast-forward to this year. I see that they’re doing a tour to celebrate the 10 year anniversary of This is Forever. I was probably one of the first people to buy tickets to the Seattle show.

2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge

The night of the show, my boyfriend and good friend, Sean, arrived at the Showbox two hours early. Once we got inside the venue, they sat at the bar and I stood squarely in the front row. Between opener bands, I struck up conversation with the couple and their friend behind me. They live in Oregon and were just in town to see the show. They mentioned that they had just flown up after seeing SWR perform in California. I mentally kicked myself for not having followed the band on multiple tour dates. In conversation, it came up that they knew both Adam and Justin from forever ago and told me some cool stories about the good ol’ days. Right as the second band, the Dig, started performing, Adam came by to say hi to the couple and they introduced me to him. I did my best to make worthwhile conversation and not be a fangirl. It was a true highlight. Adam had come to talk to the couple, but also to take photos for the Dig. After he accomplished both, he bowed out to get ready for his own show.

The Seattle show. Goodness. I yelled along to every song and completely let the music wash over me. I felt everything all at once hearing Justin sing the songs to life. Red Flags and Long Nights took me back to the end of my marriage, feeling the chapter ending and the book closing – the catharsis washing over me. The experience left me emotional and raw. I tried to resist my constant urge to record everything and only took a few photos that night. Hell, I hadn’t even brought my Canon to the show.

After the show ended, the couple mentioned that the following night, She Wants Revenge would be performing in Oregon and I should come. I told them I’d see them there. I kid you not, I already had plans to come down to Oregon with friends that weekend. I just needed to talk my friends into a change of plans. It seemed fated that we should go. Thankfully, they humoured me because of how elated and overjoyed I sounded that night.

2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge

The Portland show was excellent. I arrived early and was front row again while my friends were at the bar (citing knee issues and feigning old age – come on guys!). This time, I took as many photos as I could, while still singing along to the lyrics. I knew I couldn’t follow She Wants Revenge on any further tour dates and it felt like this might be my last time to hear them live. Bittersweet. I wanted to record it all.

After the show, I got up the courage to talk to Justin and to have a second conversation with Adam. Justin teased me for taking so many photos and offered me a selfie to add to my collection. All I remember is telling him how thankful I was that he and Adam took the time out of their lives to do this tour and how great I think their music is and what it means to me.

2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge
2016.10 - She Wants Revenge

I’m listening to “Take the World” as I write this and I feel warm and happy in a way that only something you love deeply can inspire within you.